Since my last post, things have been shifting and taking shape. I am no longer content to continue living a mediocre life. My brainstorming moments have kicked into high gear to devise my master plan for fulfillment. Along the way I got distracted some, temporarily seduced by the status quo. Wanting the outward trappings of success, but thank goodness it was shortlived and I'm back to my senses. Among the things brewing are ideas for a right livelihood for me. Also all the dreams I put on the back burner for so long, I am moving towards them, one step at a time each day. I recently discovered the peace of yoga - so necessary, considering the masculine, stressful orientation of my day job. I needed the feminine, restful balance. My attention is now on how I can work with myself, honor my own rhythms and be successful, rather than try to force fit myself into someone else's definition. My discontent is the incongruence of inside and out. After a lifetime of playing by another's rules, I am ready to make my own. I have many buns in the oven baking right now. They are not yet ready for the open air. All I can say is, I'm happy with the process of creating and nurturing and look forward with mostly joy mixed with a little fear for what is to come.
